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Eleven minutes till it’s the 29th of August. And in a few days, it’ll be September. On the 2nd, I will be 35 years old. Whew! What a ride it has been so far!

I can’t believe that I’m thirty-five. Well, there you are folks. I think I am halfway through life. What have I learned?

For one, eating candy… a lot of candies when you’re a kid ruins your teeth. My grandparents taught me that. I have always dreaded eating candies because I was afraid that I will get cavities and lose my teeth. But there are times when I eat a couple just so that I can tell myself, “Hey, I’m eating candies and my teeth are still fine!”. Of course, at the back of my mind, I was hoping my grandparents wouldn’t see me. May God bless their good souls!

Oh, another lesson I’ve learned is that mothers can really push you to the limit! Well, maybe not. But surely, they leave a huge imprint on you, when you’re growing up. I have told this story to a lot of my friends, and it’s true. My mom cried so hard when she learned that I am gay. She asked, “Where have I gone wrong?”. I told her, “Mom, remember when you took me shopping? You made me pick out your clothes, asked my opinion about what shoes will match, jewelry, make up, hair-do… all of that…”. It was short of saying, “It’s all your fault!!!”. But of course, I didn’t go that far. Then she started laughing… and still crying. But hey, how do you explain your homosexuality to your mother? Anybody has a better way?

Love. There’s a touchy subject. What is love? Honestly, I thought I knew. After all the ups and downs, the roller coaster romances, I have come to realize that love is over-rated. I hear people gasping! LOL! Nawwww. I have not become that jaded… yet! But seriously, there is more to love than feeling enamored towards someone. It’s beyond the physical attraction. It’s beyond the sweet nothings. It’s beyond intimacy. You can’t really qualify nor quantify what it is. It’s just there. I guess, when love comes along, you wouldn’t really know that it’s there. It’ll just hit you and find yourself in a different world. It’s like losing yourself for a moment. And when you come to, everything seems different. *sigh* Oh well. I guess there is no lesson in love, except embrace it when it comes.

Friends. You win some. You lose some. There are people who will be a part of who you are and what you are for as long as you live. And for those that stay with you through thick and thin, let me tell you, they’re for keeps! I read this short story the other day and posted it on the bulletin board. It was a touching story about how friends make a difference in your life. If you’re in my buddy list, read the bulletins and you’ll know what I’m talking about. I just want to take this moment to express my warmest gratitude to everyone who I have come to be friends with. You know who you are and I wanna thank you for being there with me, for me, as I discover myself in this life and make the best out of it. I love you. I may not say it often, but I do appreciate everything that you are, what we’ve shared, the good, the bad, the ugly, even the unspeakable! LOL!

Wait, what am I blabbering about? Sorry, I get carried away sometimes. All I want to say is that I am glad I have reached this point and that I can safely say that I am happy. Life has been good to me and am blessed with great people that surround me.

Every second counts and I am looking forward to more of it!