It happens in our lives when we find ourselves in situations where we have little or no control at all. And when it happens, it totally encompasses our entire being. We can find no reason nor rhyme. It just happens.
I saw the movie Brokeback Mountain tonight. To me, it is as menacing as the emotions that I once felt. It reminded me that there are things that I cannot control… things that I cannot comprehend… things that are way above and beyond me… and relationships that are bound to fail just because I did not make that step towards making it work. And even if I did, it would have ended just as bitter and painful.
I have built a mountain of broken dreams. Not because I wanted to. It just happened. However, when I do look back and stand at the foot of it, I realize that this mountain has helped me become who I am today. It has made me stronger and more determined, as well as hopeful that there is something or someone out there for me.
“I wish I knew how to quit you.”
You can’t quit what’s become a part of you… of who you are… unless you deny yourself of your entire being.