… “only if you allow it.”
The latter is a response that Edwin gave me when I was telling him about how I was afraid of going through a similar situation again.
A few days ago, my boss and his wife were in town. They weren’t here on business. How about that for a change? Anyway, I still had to meet them.
My boss and I had a little chat about work, specifically about my relocation. I told him that I want to stay here longer. I know, I am singing a different tune now. In one of my previous posts, I couldn’t wait to go back to California. Things changed. I didn’t have any reason to stay. Now, I do.
When my boss got back to California, he sent me an email. Apparently, he asked the other senior managers about my situation. His concern was where I will be more effective? Here or at the head office? They had a consensus that I should go back. In his email, he posted me this question: Let me hear your specific reasons why you should continue to be based there in NY. I just feel bad because when I told him that I wanted to stay here, he gave me the idea that it was okay with him. When I received his email, I felt crushed.
The only reason why I’m staying here is work. But now that I found someone, I feel that I should stay a little bit longer just to see how it pans out. When I left California, I risked my relationship and it eventually suffered. I don’t want that to happen again.
Honestly, I feel lost.