I went to Norfolk, VA on August 15th to attend a very important presentation at Fort Lee on the 16th. I had not slept prior to the flight since it was a red-eye. I arrived in Norfolk at around 2:30pm EST. I wanted to rest and get some much needed sleep, but my clients called around 4pm and said that they were going to pick me up at 5pm. We went to dinner and it turned out to be a business meeting. I was in my cargo shorts and a button down striped shirt, sleeves rolled up, over black tank top. They didn’t mind. It was an impromptu meeting anyway. I looked like hell. But I’m just glad that my mind hasn’t totally left my body. I got back to the hotel at 11pm. I couldn’t sleep right away. I think I slept at 1am and woke up at 5am. They were going to pick me up at 6am. Dang! Oh well. So, yeah, I made it to the presentation dressed properly, only to realize that the others were in casual clothes! ARGH! Anyway, the presentation went well, and I got myself more work up ahead. Short to say, it was successful. Woohoo!
After the presentation, we went to Elizabeth City, North Carolina, which was only 45 minutes south. On the way, I remembered that it was Zach’s birthday. Remember him? He’s my ex. Or so I thought. Anyway, get this.
Me: Happy birthday
Zach: Thanks
Me: How’ve you been?
Zach: Good. Can’t complain n u?
Me: Me too. I’m sorry about the last time. I blacked out. But we’re beyond that. No regrets. I hope we can still be friends.
Zach: I don’t see y not
Me: Cool! I’m here in Virginia Beach on business.
Zach: On my day off in DE
Me: U still work with (airline company)?
Zach: Yup
Me: That’s great! Did you get promoted?
Zach: I’m a supervisor 4 mainline
Me: Congratulations. I’m being considered for the controller position.
Zach: Congrats to u as well
Me: Thanks.
Zach: Glad we talked
Me: I’ve been contemplating on calling but wasn’t sure if you’d welcome the idea.
Zach: I’m ready now
Me: I’m glad. I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders
Zach: Glad if it gives you closure
Me: Just one question if you don’t mind. You said you lied. I just wanna know what it was.
Zach: That I told u i loved u
Me: The first time? The last time?
Zach: First
Me: Wow! That stings. Nevertheless, you made me happy and I had a great time. Thank you.
Zach: I had a ton of good times with u too. Thank you
Me: I did truly love you. But yeah, It’s been a great time.
Zach: I never cheated on u
I felt crushed more than ever. But I got the closure that I needed. I don’t know why he even said “I never cheated on u”. If that was meant to make me feel better, maybe it worked a little.
How can a person keep lying for such a long time and live with himself knowing full well that he’s blatantly fooling and hurting someone else? They say that when someone lives a lie, it becomes his reality. I wonder if at one point that the “I love you” was real?